May Field Notes
a record of what's alive
NOTE: The Lost Library: a mystery society and adventure field for magical adults is now open and fully operational! You can get 50% off your first month with code TLLFIRSTMONTH50.
Photo by Jennifer Roth at Gaia Dawn Studios
Dear Magical Creatrix,
I come to you today with my bedroom window open; the house a mess; the mourning doves cooing from my roof; sunshine streaming in with a cool breeze.
On this full moon in Sagittarius, I am tired. After I write to you, I plan to run out for a huge bag of Epsom salts, take a hot salt bath, and curl up on the couch with my kids for a movie.
The Lost Library
On Friday I completed my first full month of live calls inside my mystery society & adventure field for magical adults: The Lost Library.
When I got off the call, I felt both satisfied and exhausted. I am in love with this space I’ve created. It’s magical, mysterious, strange, and so intelligently designed.
And.
It’s confronting to face new levels of my own leadership and to hold my own power without flinching. In the private in-house podcast, I shared a note with my members about how I actually felt like shit after finishing that call.
Not because the space is wrong, or because I did anything bad…but actually because it’s so right? And it’s asking me to become more of myself, to dig deeper than ever before. It’s a thrilling, energizing, and activating space to be in.
I’ve never been more proud of myself, or more scared. 😂
I think this is totally normal. And this is why it’s so important for us to keep creating these secret worlds where we can whisper to each other this kind of high gossip.
Did you know gossip actually means “god-speak”? And that it’s a magical way women have transmitted information to each other in secret for millennia.
So is it any wonder that it now has the connotation as something bad and nasty that women do?
Of course, there are lower forms of gossip in which women talk behind each other’s backs and use gossip to take each other down.
But there is a type of mycelial intelligence to gossip, a way that we spread information to each other behind closed doors, in our tea rooms, in the boudoir, in our parlours. It is actually a magical form of speech in its highest octave.
The first month of The Lost Library was all about the structural feminine - laying the groundwork for everything else we do inside the space to actually land in the Real world.
As women in spiritual spaces, we’ve been told that to structure anything we need “the masculine” - that’s false. In our foundational May Salon, we talk about why. And what is really at the root of all creation.
The replay is now live in the space and if you’re interested in joining The Lost Library, you can now receive 50% off your first month with code: TLLFIRSTMONTH50
Apprenticeship
I’m currently inside two concurrent yearlong apprenticeships - one in the feminine magic arts with my mentor Seren Bertrand, and another in Biomancy with her husband Dr. Azra Bertrand.
It feels like Destiny to be inside these spaces - I’m not going to be the same on the other side.
It feels like everything I’ve learned in my lifetime was always planning to coagulate in these spaces. It is helping me co-here and crystallize and communicate what I’ve been building.
As part of the Biomancy apprenticeship I’ve been going outside every morning (and most evenings too) for a practice called Sola-Terra - in which I greet the Earth and the Sun and move through a breath sequence.
It’s a very simple practice, but it’s become my favorite part of the day. A moment to pause, breathe, locate myself on the planet and with the celestial bodies, and orient myself in the larger context of time. “Sun time before screen time” has been my motto and the shift is subtle, but profound.
I also am thinking about the long-lost art of apprenticeship, and how we can bring it back for a new era, in an organic expression.
Wuthering Heights
I finally watched the new Wuthering Heights and it was actually the first time I’ve ever experienced the story!
I am obsessed with the lush feminine magic symbolism and the secret Magdalene-coded story embedded within it. I want to watch it 20 more times just to absorb all the lush symbolism.
Perhaps I’ll share more later but for now I’ll just say that my initial impression is that watching it felt like living inside a tarot deck for two hours.
My Garden
In springtime I become obsessed with my garden.
I am the millennial everyone is now making all those garden memes about, showing us outside with our coffee in our bathrobes just “checking on our plants”.
Every morning after my Sola-Terra practice I walk around my yard and check on/talk to my plants. Today I saw that we have teeny roma tomatoes and tiny jalapeño peppers.
I never really learned how to garden, though my Grandpa had a huge garden and my dad is also pretty good at it.
But ever since we bought our house in 2020, I’ve learned a little more each year. I’m by no means an expert but I love letting the plants teach me - I’ve had as many failures as successes but it is much easier than it seems!
For vegetables we like to grow them in pots in case we need to move them around for sunlight, plus it’s more flexible than a dedicated garden bed.
But I’m also working on growing my enchanted woodland fairy garden…which is in progress. In a couple years, I’d like to have a slightly wild and strange cottage-core flower garden. I’m just taking it one year at a time.
On a final note, I’m evolving this publication yet again and will soon be announcing a new name for it!
I’ve taken a slight pause from this space as my work has been undergoing a re-organization, but I’m excited to energize this space once again and I’ve got a whole new rhythm planned.
For the Restoration,
Lisa 💄