Welcome to Prismatic Pollinators—a monthly series for all subscribers!
This is an “end of the month” issue sharing a short channeled message
+ social posts, books, music, quotes, podcasts, and
whatever is currently inspiring me,
igniting my curiosity, and transmuting through the filter of my heart.
Do you love having written but hate writing?
I RELATE, big time. Or at least, I did.
In this issue, I also share
about my painful relationship to my writing process—
and the ABSOLUTE GODS-SENT gift of
channeled writing.
Scroll through the whole email to discover all my current faves & obsessions—and if you can’t see the whole thing
in your inbox, just click through to read it on Substack.
But first, some exciting personal news: last week I graduated from
my Quantum Hypnosis Program
and I am *officially* a certified Quantum Hypnosis Practitioner!
This modality has utterly changed my life in ways
I am still processing—
and I will be sharing my story soon over on
The Glitch Witch podcast, so get thee over to the podcast & subscribe!
Here is a channeled message to close out the month:
Card: “Truth” Deck: Vessel Oracle
(No, you’re NOT imagining it: this was ALSO the October closing card. I pulled it AGAIN.)
“We are going to continue directing you back into your heart. Your planet is in pain. You are in pain—both personal and collective. We see your turmoil. We witness you even when it feels as though no one is with you. We see you. We are with you. You are NEVER alone.
“What your planet needs most at this time is heart medicine. Whenever you can, as many times as you can think of, descend into your heart. Share from your heart. Speak from your heart. Grieve from your heart. Connect from your heart. Listen from your heart.
“Truth resides in your heart. Remember, too: TRUTH is PRISMATIC. What is true for you may not be true for another. Can you become curious about the truth of others, even as you root into your own truth? Even if their truth looks and sounds and behaves differently from yours? Can you trust others to know their truth as you trust yourself to know yours?
“Your heart vibrates at the frequency of truth.”
Workshop Reminder:
Cosmic Scribe is TONIGHT!
Raise your hand (🙋🏼♀️) if you HARD RELATE to this quote:
“I hate writing but love having written.”
It’s a common refrain among writers, because
the sentiment is so shared, so relatable,
that any one of us
could have said it.
I used to *absolutely dread* my writing sessions. When I had an idea
for a project—fiction, nonfiction, or otherwise—
I would put off starting for weeks, often months. Sometimes, even years.And there were MANY ideas
I never even bothered committing to the page, but I just
couldn’t bring myself to get started.
And when I finally did sit down to write, I hated everything about
the actual process of writing.
It made me feel bad about myself. I would feel the ENORMOUS pressure
of the blank page.
The blinking cursor seemed to taunt me:
“You think you’re a writer? Think again.”
Every word felt like pulling teeth. It was excruciating and slow going.
Often, my writing sessions felt so unbearable,
I’d go more weeks or months before attempting another one.
During these “off” periods,
I’d spend each day thinking “I should write today”
and then…not doing it.
I told myself I had a “procrastination problem” and I would Google
“how to stop procrastinating”
and “how to overcome writer’s block”—anything except
actually sitting down to write.
I was so full of shame that I couldn’t seem to just "get my butt in the chair”
and “sit at the keyboard and bleed.”
The longer it took me to get back to writing, the worse I felt.
And when I finally did find the motivation to return, it was begrudgingly, and I found ZERO JOY in the process.
It was a vicious, painful cycle—and I’d often wonder:
“Am I even cut out for this?”
I think that was the most painful part of all.
Writing was my dream. I couldn’t imagine a future
where I didn’t hold the identity “writer”. And yet, if that was true,
why did I hate writing so much?
I would scroll on social media and see so many writers thriving,
effortlessly churning out words and
and “reaching flow state”, posting countless updates about
their myriad successes:
word counts and
book deals and
story acceptances…the list goes on.
I was on the outside looking in. I was starting to feel a bit…delulu.
My dreams seemed
increasingly unattainable,
like something out of fantasy land. Pipe dreams,
as so many people had already told me they were.
Writing began to feel like something meant for other people—gifted “chosen ones.”Not for me.
I thought…maybe I should just give this up.
Why did I keep doing something that was bringing me nothing
but misery and heartache?
The thought of giving up on my writing dreams broke my heart,
but I also didn’t know
if I wanted to continue to put myself through
the pure torture of actually writing.
Hadn’t I started writing because it was supposed to be fun? And if it
wasn’t fun, what was the point?
And then, by some miracle, I found channeled writing—
and everything changed.
I discovered…
writing isn’t painful
writing isn’t like “pulling teeth”
writingisn’t a miserable grind or a slog
writing isn’t a chore
I didn’t actually hate writing.
I wasn’t “a procrastinator”.
AND,
writing is a joy
writing is pleasure
writing is play
writing is discovery
writing is adventure
But most of all:
I wasn’t doing it by myself, because
writing is a collaborative effort
Channeled writing takes a lot of the pressure off
to “come up with things” to write and it opens
you up to FLOW.
And the more you do it, the easier
it becomes, and
the more fun.
The main downside is now
that I’ve discovered this powerful tool, it’s hard to find time
for all the words that want to just
UTTERLY POUR through me—
but, champagne problems, amiright? 😂🍾
Seriously. Sometimes I look back at all those agonized years of pain
and shame and
I just want to hug that young girl and
tell her there’s nothing wrong with her and
she’s worthy of her dreams and
most of all she IS A WRITER—
she just hasn’t found a way that works for her YET.
And I would have told her about
channeled writing and
showed her how to do it (and reminded her she actually already knew how)
and saved her MANY years of
frustration, resentment, and doubt.
BUT SINCE TIME TRAVEL IS NOT A THING (yet)
I am doing the next best thing:
teaching you.
Cosmic Scribe is an experiential workshop in which I guide you through a channeled writing exercise.
It’s super powerful—and now that I have my
Quantum Hypnosis Certification,
I’ve upgraded the experience with some new tricks.
I can’t wait to share!
This workshop is especially impactful
for those of you who feel like you’ve tried everything
when it comes to your writing—
and common “writing advice” either doesn’t work or just makes you
feel worse.
It’s $20 and it’s one hour—and all enrollees
will receive the recording.
If you can come live, that’s ideal, because
there’s just something energizing about the shared experience. But
if you can’t make it,
no biggie.
I promise the magic will still work.
PLUS—you can replay the recording again & again to
replicate the experience, until you develop
your own relationship
to channeled writing—and discover your own way in.
That’s the best part about this tool: it is *NOT*
“one size fits all”,
and it fully collaborates with the magic of your unique genius.
I facilitate the space and the experience—the rest is all you.
And once you learn,
you can access channeled writing at any time,
in your own way.
I hope you’ll join us! Enroll below.
NOTE: Paid Subscribers can access the workshop FOR FREE.
TO FIND YOUR CODE:
go to the Portals & Prisms Substack page
locate the “Cosmic Scribe” invitation post
scroll to the bottom for your coupon code
Just reply to this email if you have any trouble finding it!
November: Favorite Quotes
“More than a painting, the Ghent Altarpiece was a revolution. It was a cleverly crafted Trojan horse, slipped past the fortress walls of the Catholic stronghold of Ghent, where it stood boldly, in plain sight, for all initiates to see, a symbol of rebellion in the face of the seemingly invincible magisterium of the church. There it emboldened artists, poets, and philosophers of Europe who made pilgrimage to stand in its awe-inspiring presence, replicating its themes across the continent. It set a precedent for the heretical public art of the Renaissance that would in time dethrone and end the hegemony of the church. Where books were banned and public gatherings impossible, art became the prime weapon of the resistance, but it was a dangerous game that involved personal risks hard to understand in our modern age.”
Seren Bertrand & Azra Bertrand, The Magdalene Mysteries: The Left-Hand Path of the Feminine Christ (emphasis my own)
“I believe strongly that stories live longer and stay closer to the truth when they are only stored in human hearts and heads. How many times did my father tell me that it was foolish to depend on the written Law when it could be corrupted or miswritten?
“Already I have seen my life written down wrong. My love and my heartbreak have been turned into words as dead as those scrolls. Dry, bleached, white bodies that connot possibly summon the vitality, the juice, the sorrow, and the abundance of my life.” (words of the narrator, Miriam, aka Mary Magdalene)
—Sophie Strand, The Madonna Secret
“Inside you is the wild part of you that knows what your gift, purpose, and mission are. That part of you is wild and elusive. It cannot be captured, as it is always evolving. To live on its trail, you must become a tracker.
—Boyd Varty, The Lion Tracker’s Guide to Life
“The most important thing each of us can know is our unique gift and how to use it in the world. Individuality is cherished and nurtured, because, in order for the whole to flourish, each of us has to be strong in who we are and carry our gifts with conviction, so they can be shared with others. Being among the sisters provides a visible manifestation of what a community can become when its members understand and share their gifts. In reciprocity, we fill our spirits as well as our bellies.”
Robin Wall Kimmerer, Braiding Sweetgrass: Indigenous Wisdom, Scientific Knowledge, and the Teachings of Plants
November: Favorite Social Posts
November: Favorite Books
November: Favorite Podcast Episodes
November: Favorite Music
PS: My December Books are OPEN!
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